Hey i am back. Today i am not doing so good. Everyone is talking about x-mas i am not or ready for x-mas at all with out my kids i am knowone i feel like that. i am working on it everyday but its hard and hard everyday. i want to run and dont look back. change my name, live in a different state, change my hair color. i dont know what to somedays other then standy in bad unntil i have to go to work and i dont even want to do that. well i am talking to much i let you all go thanks for listen to me. hope everyone is having a good day.