I suggest being satisfied with acceptance. Accepting you is a beautiful thing, why complicate things by throwing'understanding' in the equation? Like the other members have stated, they can try and try, why make yourself miserable with your unfair expectations?Do you expect an astrologer to understand biochemistry,gp to understand architecture,would you 'understand' if he had cancer? Some things are just out of the scope of understanding.Not being mean,but honestly,if I had acceptance, it would be enough...