thanks so much for responding. i has also forgotten to mention i have social anxiety issues. i guess its part of the book thing (which, i thought i was alone too) and i start isolating myself...which i have already done. i have just recieved word that my "plan" has indeed failed. i had hoped my mom could schedule it so then i would feel obligated in a way and wouldnt back out. apparently, she cant. the clinic told her that i have to go to the campus counselor and have them set up the appointment. yea right! the entire purpose of even disclosing to my mom that i was going back into therapy was to avoid said action. i am also afraid the counselor may want to know the reasoning behind my action....i do not want them to know why i am goin. besides that, i dont even know where that is on campus. i havent heard anything about said office....and i hear a lot. its not even in the handbook, i do not believe. blah. back to square one. this is stressful.