faith, i know by talking to you on a regular basis that you are strong, you might feel as though you are lying or kidding yourself, but your not, you are strong. you are allowed to feel scared and want to be hugged, it doesnt make you "a little girl". if i could i would hold you and comfort you.

we've had several chats and conversations over the last few months and i hold a lot of respect for you, i think you are a great person, and i certainly do not believe you are a fraud.

you are in a state of grief, and you may just cry randomly for what seems like no reason. this is inevitable and it will continue until you have dug deep enough to find your issues. because you have spent so long burrying them it will take a while to uncover them, but it will happen if you remain consistant. mood swings are important too, it is a way to release the tension and anger your body is holding. im sure your family and friends will understand and stick by you, explain to them why it happens and im sure they will support you.

i understand you completely faith, and i understand what you are going through, i was there not long ago. i will be here to support you whenever you need it ok. you know where i am faith.

speak soon and take it easy on yourself.

simon