Thanks guys.. I know you are right.. emotions are like waves of the ocean.. always changing... I think its just that I am not used to having so many feelings so much of the time.

I ignored my feelings and I ignored my body for most of my life. I stayed so dang busy all the time that if i had wanted to allow feelings.. there wasn't time to.

It is new to me.. especially negative feelings.. I think i have always been afraid that if i allowed negative feelings I would be consumed with them to the point of becoming bitter.

I haven't told all of my story yet but there is so much for me to look at and heal from that I am often overwhelmed.I am not entirely sure i understand or know how to have these feelings either. I am in therapy doing a great deal of emotional work.

I was on medication for depression and anxiety but have been off them since April.Meds cloud my mind and I seem to have bad side effects from them too.. but I am going to talk with my doctor about it again.

Thank you Simon for being so awesome!You are so kind and caring... a blessing to know for sure!