Oh sweet, sweet girl... I wish i could give you a hug... a good "mom" hug.. where you could cry and feel safe doing it... where you could let all your feelings out without worry. this is what you need.

Please know that our bodies are designed to protect ourselves.. the adrenal gland automatically does its job.. flight or fight... and you fought.. you fought until you felt safe enough to take flight.

You didn't mean for this guy to die.. you didn't set you to kill him...you protected yourself from an attacker.. that was so natural and brave that you should be proud that you were able to keep yourself from being raped and God knows what else that could have happened.

Talk as much as you need to here.. we are here for you and with you.. you do not have to deal with this alone anymore.everything wil be okay.