If you want to break it off and the only reason you're staying is from fear of ever finding someone else, truth is, you need to break up. It's just not at all a good reason to stay with anyone. I know it can be scary, I'm facing being alone right now, separated, and going to be divorced from my wife. I suffer from social phobia which is a different reason for my lack of friends but, has the same results. I too have no friends and I know exactly how you feel. I know I'm not offering much advice here but thought I'd say I'm with you on how you feel and to offer *hugs*

I'm sorry you're going through this and having a hard time.

~S4