I feel like I was to commit suicide but I am too chicken to do it. I have never felt so lonely. I feel alone and worthless. I know my dog and parents would miss me, but I don't care I feel like there is no point to my life and I have no value in being alive. It just feel horrible.

I don't even know how to explain it to someone who has never felt like this. It doesn't sound logical. I just wish I could enjoy my life and the good things that are happening, but for some reason I can't. I feel like I'm not capable of helping myself.