I'm glad you posted. I'm 38 and continue to feel like I will never be where I thought I would be at this age. I've never been anywhere or seen anything and I don't want to die without some sort of adventure or exciting trip. It is never going to happen. I still fantasize about having some great relationship like they have in fairy tales. I'm still waiting to be swept off my feet or get taken on some surprise trip or even date. I've been married for almost 10 years. It is never going to happen. There are people all around me that seem to have all this luck and great things that happen to them. I'm not sure why some of us got the short end of the stick. If something positive happens in my life, something negative follows and cancels out the good. I feel just like you. And have felt just like you for as long as I can remember. I feel like such a waste. I don't have any great words of advice. We are supposed to be here for some reason though. I just haven't figured it out yet. If I do, I will let you know.