I can not sympathize with you more. I honestly do not know what has brought me to that way of thinking. My favorite saying was...
"I am not prejudiced. I hate everyone equally." And to this day, I have not found a way to deal with this problem. My only recourse has been to isolate myself to a very few persons and for very short lengths of time. Maybe 2 or 3 hours maximum. Have heard many times to "Treat others the way you wish to be treated." Has that actually worked for anyone?? I am an introvert.
That makes me an alien as far as this society is concerned.
I'm sorry if I've taken up too much of your thread. I guess you just bumped into my sore spot.