i can change the subject very easily or i can just distract him so i don't have to talk about it. i'm afraid if i tell him how i'm feeling lately he'll put me back in the hospital, maybe i need it, but i don't want to go.

i haven't yet actted on the severe cutting, but as i said it's on my mind more and more, and i think if i don't talk about it then i will act on it soon. i always take care of my cuts but i don't mind the scars. i actually prefer them, i have a very weird theory on that (scars).
anywyas, thank you for replying to my post.

-carmen