Firstly, I would like to say that there are many skin products out there that can help fade scars so you won't have them forever. If you choose to use those products, of course. Some really do work, I've used them myself and my scars, even the ones that were very deep and very obvious are now almost completely faded.

I started SIing a couple of years ago. It started off and on and I would do a lot in one day and then stop for the next month or so. But within the past year I've been harming myself almost everyday ritually. I am currently trying to stop and I've been free for a couple of months now. I currently depend on myself to stop because I don't really have a carer or anyone else who is supportive in the way that I need them to be. My parents help, but not much.

I don't really remember why I started, for a while I felt like I was being instructed to hurt myself because if I didn't then bad things would happen to my family and friends, so in a way, I felt like I was doing the right thing. Then I also did it when I felt like I was loosing control of my situation. It didn't really give me control over anything, though, because I ended up being a slave to SI. It just gave me a nice relaxing feeling, so I kept doing it.