Thanks everyone for your care and support. I'm such a logical person sometimes to a fault to the point of letting my rationalization override my emotional experience. "just business" is how I tried to approach it, even when T focused on our relationship. I feel bad for minimizing our connection in that way. I really do hope to find a new T at some point, or even really hope that he might go into private practice to avoid the university regulations. Not that I want to be in therapy, per se, but as he put it, "there's a lot there" and I don't want to think where I'd be without it.