((skeksi)),

I struggle too, especially around the holidays, I think alot of us struggle who are challenged with PTSD. I even talked to my T about it today, I do get times where I fall behind and struggle just like you are discribing.

Have you talked to your T about how the abuser affects you? This probably has a lot to do with boundaries, and it opens up some troubling things from your past. I have that challenge myself. The only way I can work through it right now is to find ways to take time outs and have the least amount of exposure as possible. Sometimes I am just not ready to handle certain things, that is probably what you are experiencing as well.

I don't know your "specific" challenges so I don't have detailed ways for you to work through this challenge. I have found ways that I am gaining on addressing the exposures that I have to people who have hurt me in my past. I find I am doing better. A lot depends on what you have to be around when these holidays come up.

I will say, if it involves someone who abused you sexually, I recommend you either stay away completely or keep your exposure to the extreme minimum.

((((Caring and understanding Hugs))))
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