Stress, anxiety and life pressures. I feel like I am going to bust open. School(work), family, etc. too many pressures and too many triggors. I know my life of denying that I was abused has a huge role in how I deal with daily stress. We all have it I know. I think I deal outwardly with it very well, it's just that inside I feel like I can hardly stand it.

Also, I've been drinking more than usual the past couple of weeks. It helps me relax. Don't know what is going on. I should be mature enough to know what is going on but I don't...... or don't want to admit it.