(((((pegasus))))) Thanks for your reply. Like I said to Sky, I don't feel guilty about surviving - I feel guilty about being upset, when I don't think I have a reason to. I don't even remember being upset when it happened - a remember actually feeling happy because I thought I was getting a day off school! (I was only 6, though - I didn't have a clue what was going on, and I didn't find out the details until later. Being stupid enough to look it up on Google and Wikipedia made things worse, I'm sure.)