(((Rose))),

You are going to do ok, yes, you will have little challenges here and there, like the florist, but you are going to be ok, take things as slowly as you can. Make sure you don't tell yourself you are giving up or giving in, that is not what you are really doing.
Do not let yourself adopt an "i am defeated attitude", that is not what you are doing at all here.

I had to learn how to understand this myself Rose, I know it is a challenge, just remember in the back of your mind that you are just learning a new way of tieing your shoes, and that means you are going to have to pay attention for a while until you get to that point where it just comes and flows.

What I can tell you Rose is that this "defeat mentality" is actually pretty normal. I have dealt with this so many times when I taught, and every single time I watch these "defeated feeling children" get to a point where they got over that and a light went off.

I know, without a doubt, that you are smart enough Rose. I know you can do this. Learning how to "give attention or adoration that we are talking about is not a bad thing" Rose. You just have to understand that you wont get the same back and that it only means that the other person is not truely capable of that.
It has nothing to do with "defeat" at all. And this is where the "observing" will help you, it helped me to understand alot as well. There "are" people out in the world that actually "know" how to appreciate others, work as a team and enjoy other people in healthier ways. Those are the people you need to surround yourself with. By observing now, you will learn to see the signs of people who are not the kind of people that are "healthy" for you to be around. When you learn all this, and you look for a new way to have "your life" you will be able to sort through the weeds instead of just landing in another snake pit situation.

((((Hugs))))

Open Eyes