Sally, thank you for all the good advice and sharing! Yes, I used the "Find a Provider" and came up with more than 200 names! I narrowed it down for various reasons and looked up some. My T knew one of the names I selected so I am going to make an appointment! She also gave me two more names but the other dr. is more conveniently located. It's a man, so that will be different.

Yes, I do know that side effects usually go away, and if they don't, I can try something else. I am wondering if it's possible to feel GOOD, after all these years. That would be amazing but I'm not getting my hopes up. Like you said, I'm going to try. I don't really expect to take meds and then magically stop wanting to be part of my T's life, or to stop thinking about her so much. I wish that would happen, though. I wish.....At my session today, she agreed that it was a good idea for me to try meds.