Carol,

I feel exactly the way you feel. I am terrified that he will leave me because of this disorder. I keep trying to make him understand how truly awful I feel all of the time. He is depressed and in therapy because of me. That is what I feel. He was fine before he met me. I feel like I do this to everyone... ruin their lives. I can't help but wonder how anyone with this disorder can truly have a good relationship. I feel like a waste of space. I wonder daily why anyone would ever deal with me, much less love me. I just want to feel worth something. I want to know who I am.