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Originally Posted by fletch33
Carol,
I feel exactly the way you feel. I am terrified that he will leave me because of this disorder. I keep trying to make him understand how truly awful I feel all of the time. He is depressed and in therapy because of me. That is what I feel. He was fine before he met me. I feel like I do this to everyone... ruin their lives. I can't help but wonder how anyone with this disorder can truly have a good relationship. I feel like a waste of space. I wonder daily why anyone would ever deal with me, much less love me. I just want to feel worth something. I want to know who I am.
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I knoooowwww.
That is one h of a way to feel, I know; like you are someone who really hurt someone so much.
Rachel Reiland, the author of Get Me Out of Here, was still married after she completed therapy for bpd. it was very hard on her and on her husband and her kids. She did beat it.
Everyone is forgivable.
BPD is not all you are and you do deserve a relationship. You deserve peace and healing.
Carol