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Originally Posted by hamster-bamster
I have not read this forum a lot. I have an issue I want to discuss with people here, but the discussion would involve disclosing a really bad trait that I have. No, it is not some weird but innocuous fetish - it is something that would be considered immoral in any culture, especially the modern privacy-based culture. Just something that is really reprehensible. But I do not want to mend my ways - I do not want to exercise will power and self-control, but rather hope that eventually this immoral pursuit will become boring to me and I will stop, or, even more realistically, that technical issues will eventually prevent me from indulging.
So will I cause an uproar if I disclose or will you be lenient? I need to add that I have been through a thorough neuropsychological evaluation which yielded many dx's, including "antisocial traits". Not a full-blown ASD, but traits. I think this particular thing falls squarely within "antisocial traits", because I do not get disgusted with myself at all. I am also cold and unemotional about it.
So... should I go ahead? Also, it would be a very long story - do people on this forum read long posts?
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I have stopped reading his email. I have not done it for weeks. Not because I made an effort but just because too many things were happening and his email was the very last thing on my mind. I did not even notice, until today. So, finally. It feels good. Not that I felt particularly ashamed before, but still it feels good to be free from it. Actually, it feels quite good. I do not know if that is how it feels to be a moral person or what, but... I am glad I am where I am.