Perhaps best to avoid thinking you have to criticize what you are doing and feeling; try being gentle with yourself. Today I was in a customer's store and they were giving out "inspirational" calendars for 2013. One month stuck with me as I could also give myself a break from time to time; The quote from Seneca, "What you think of yourself is more important than what others think of you". No rule says you have to act or perform according to what others would expect or want to hear. You are you, not like anyone else, and no one will ever be like you again. Some might criticize rivers because they don't flow in straight lines, or the stars because they are scattered on the night sky instead of an orderly design. Enjoy yourself. If they are lucky, perhaps others will get to enjoy you as well. Your head feels better when you stop beating it against the wall. With the symphony going on around our senses, how do we not relish the music of the world around us?