Jon,
I just wanted to say hang in there... Things will get easier and yes there is always a reason for what happens !!! We may not like what happens and it gets harder and then things start to get easier as for you dreams I am glad you have started having less nightmares...
And I wanted to say thanks for the chat last night I would like to find a way to get you my IM so if you need to chat or I need to we could run into each other maybe somehow there is ... Let me know if you would like to do that .... troubled1