Did that take a long time or what, what a procrastinator I am. I just was not ready. Today.. I was not ready but I went in and just got them to do it on the spot after months of trying to avoid the whole thing. It took the girl two hours to cut my hair! That's a long time in anticipation.. since I was having such a hard time with this whole thing, go figure it had to take forever for the process. The universe is awesome like that.

I know when I posted that thread I was really upset. I think I am still upset. I have no idea what that attachment to the hair is all about. Well a few things I know... watching what felt like my womanhood been chopped off and thrown on the floor and into the trash can.

I still feel silly about this, and why this is so hard for me. I have to work tomorrow, stupid.. I should have done this when I had more time to adjust because tomorrow will be comments and questions and me feeling awkward and back to elementary school. Did I ever say I hated childhood.. The constant ridicule and name calling over the boy hair my mom always made me have. Seems so silly, for some reason that really impacted me.. I had a lot worse things to worry about than that. I don't get it really.

I feel so dramatic sometimes.. even my own tummy cringes.. it's ok.