I went to see a psych Dr and she seems to think I have Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome... I have nightmares alomst all night nightly!! Alot of things trigger these and I am not sure where to go from here i just thought I was depressed and needed Anti-Depressants now I have someone telling there is something totally differant going on...
I don't have a therapist i am afraid to drag up everything I have been through and survived in this way through by pushing it down instead of facing it in my waking hours... I feel if I only have To deal with it in my dreams I should be ok but Not anymore I am a survivor of Sexual Abuse from my Father and Step-mother, As well as physical abuse from my step-mother... I grew up to date an Alcoholic just like my dad and an abuser as well.. I have finally got away from those types of people in my personal life but .. They are still in my dreams, My memories, Certain things or smells horrify me.. I get really wierd... I subjected my children to the last real jerk I will ever date and he hurt them ( sexual abuse ) I am going to trial for that if they will ever quit with the continuences.... One of the other triggers for nightmares... Anyway enough is enough sorry for rambling... troubledone