thank you for your responses
rhapsody and seeker they are greatly apprieciated
I agree with both of you ,but i know with my insecurity from the first time i checked his computer that i am constantly paranoid he wants other women.he assures me i am the one he wants and that he only looks,but then all i have ever done is cheat on my men to get my own back on them after my paranoid episodes.which is what i did so through my own fault am i looking for things that are not there.