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WhiteClouds · Dec 12, 2012 at 09:14 AM

I recently post about sexual dreams with my T. Well, I had an appt with him. As usual it was little writing on his part and a lot of talking on my part. he caught himself last week about to say, "You look very Pretty today". He made a save by saying, "I mean you look very professional. Very professional". I immediately disregard. It was a simple mistake.
Well, yesterday during my session he asked me was I attracted to my psychiatrist. I laughed it off and told him the truth that I'm not. I explained I like smart people. I admire and respect him, however I am not attracted to him. Which is the truth. He then said, "Good, keep him in that box". Session ends.
Fast forward. Last night I was on the internet looking up something and stumble upon this article about my T. He had a relationship with a client. Nothing came of it. However, who ever wrote this article was not happy with him at all.
I went to bed feeling like I "uncovered" him. I feel like I know too much about him. I'm concerned now I won't be able to get any work done knowing this secret. I wish I didn't know. I respect him. He is always professional. Or, did my subconscious knew and that is why I kept having the dreams? I don't know... I feel physically sick today.

Belle