Good insight makes since. When my wife and first met I told her about my past and that I was comfortable with who I was. Then friendship turned into friends with benefits now marriage we have not discussed homosexuality at all since our marriage and it is very difficult for me because before when we talked she was ok with possible encounters as long I was with her when I was with her.

Now she has been diagnosed with MS and our love life is strained because when I want it she can't and when she wants it I can't because I'm worried about her condition and current state.

I feel that if I were to have any kind of activity with a man I would be betraying her because of our current lacking in the bedroom.