Hello, lex - I completely understand where you are coming from. I have gone through a couple situations where people kept saying I needed to regain weight "have a milkshake - or two," and I would start eating bigger portions and things.

I'd arrive at a weight that wasn't comfortable for me and actual feel very resentful that I listened to people and "gave in" and miss the control, feel guilty for not exercising my willpower and not eating...

But what people above are saying is right - I struggle with anemia too, and it makes everything harder, lacking so much energy - but maintaining proper nutrition is priceless. It's very hard, because so often in the world when we make motion for changes, we can at least see some of the results before our eyes. It isn't so obvious for something like this, and it can be very discouraging.

Maybe try some regular activity? I know I hate it when people tell me this, but it can be helpful. This doesn't mean you have to start lifting huge weights or running miles and miles. This isn't realistic or really even possible when anemic because getting tired can happen so quickly. I know that exercising to build a little muscle is motivation for me to eat healthy, because it's something where you really can see the change!

This may sound kind of silly, but there is cool little blog called Lazy Girl Fitness that I really like, where the creator has "invented" little ways to get some exercise in when doing daily things like brushing your teeth or watching TV. Now even when I'm cooking at the stove (or the other day was peeling chocolate kisses for cookies, lol!) I've started to do things like squats or ab twists. Feels kinda silly or embarrassing at first - but it works!
http://violetsage.wordpress.com/cate...-girl-fitness/

Hope you feel better soon.