Thanks Anika. I un-sarcastically agree with everything you said. Thank you for your understanding.

"I do not dislike myself either. But I experience unwarranted, unfounded, unreasonable guilt and shame. And I wrongly blame myself for the fact
that "I just don't fit in". I don't see that as "not liking myself".

What I was trying to say here is that I do believe it is okay not to fit in.

But my first reaction it seems, is always to see the other person as innocent
until proven guilty. And at the same time, seeing myself as being guilty
until proven innocent. I guess I would sooner misjudge myself than someone else. Although this might not be the healthiest way of thinking, I am still not sure that it means I don't like myself.

Anika, I think what U wrote below is a very important point...

"Sometimes it can seem like they are all bad, I wonder if it is because these people tend to cling together.. if you end up in their circle it really would seem like everyone is like that. Not just a bad seed but a bad garden."