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Old Dec 12, 2012, 03:57 PM
Syra Syra is offline
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Originally Posted by Chopin99 View Post
Thanks for the replies!
I have no idea (thus far) why I want to be a favorite. IRL, I don't strive to be anyone's favorite. I know she doesn't have to be my BFF, be enthralled with me, or need her heartstrings tugged at for her to love me or help me. Thing is, she has acted like a BFF, been enthralled, and allowed her heartstrings to be tugged. I think it's for all these reasons that she was actually hurt by my email and subsequent reaction.
This is sounding more and more famliar. I didnt' think I was a favorite, but I thought I was special along with several others. She did lower boundaries for me. She did seem to be very maternal towards me. She rescued me at times, I think. Sometimes I wonder if the fact that she did these things for me led her to expect a certain level of compliance that I couldn't give. I don't know. That's not what she said. But she was trying to get me to be more compliant with her thinking, and when I couldn't do that things started falling apart. I can only see this in retrospect, and I don't know the whole story because she hasn't told her side of it - she just asked for a break and several months later sent me a Dear John letter. I believe she was really regretful. I don't believe she has owned, and probalby recognized, her part in it So that's just my speculation.

Last edited by Syra; Dec 12, 2012 at 05:01 PM.
Thanks for this!
Chopin99