hello my name is newtus i am 22 years old.

for the past year i have not been on meds. but many hospitalizations. and of course police interference.

i have paranoid schizophrenia.

now. the thing i want to confess is - is that i smoked pot when i was 15 and i solidified psychosis for me i think even though i had psychosis before it too. i havent used pot since i was 15 except for a week ago i used for the first time in 6-7 years. it has led me on a obsession to smoke pot. it has opened up my mind like a second layering peeling off. i can practically feel it.