Hey Everybody,

I'm struggling this morning. I tend to get caught in this trap of thinking that I'm a fake or just melodramatic or something. I've been dealing with some issues from the past that have been really hard on me, and I have a tendency to start minimizing the problems or thinking I'm just crazy when things get too tough. Anyway, I haven't cut myself in two years, although I have some other more minor self-harm problems. I was looking at my scars last night and I noticed how much they are faded. It really depressed me. I started thinking I didn't cut enough times, and I didn't cut deep enough. I've been having the urge for quite some time to start again, and the only thing that's been keeping me hanging on is the that I don't want to ruin the fact that I haven't in so long. But I really am feeling the need to prove to myself that I'm hurting, if that makes sense. Sometimes I don't believe I am, or that I have a right to hurt at all. Anybody have some advice?

Angela
(SweetCrusader)

"Blessed be the cracked, for they let in the light"
-Author Unknown