Thanks for the good thoughts and hugs......pc friends have become the greatest part of everyday for me. I've never felt such genuine support.
5yrs after my divorce there doesn't seem to be alot of progress.....sometimes I think there is and then he will have one of his fits and it just gets bad. I find myself hiding out in my house or trying to make sure I get home before dark. I had to go out of town for an attorney the last time I tried to get help because of the small town system in place here where he belongs to the country club with them, golf, poker.....you name it. I've come to believe that a "protection order" is just words on a paper.
anyway, I've gone on long enough.....thanks to each of you for your support (((((hugs)))))