There were only 2 times I've felt really happy in most of my life and there were when I held my Bucky (why did he leave me, why couldn't I be first)? and when I was flying in a small cessna 150 alone with only the instructor. Flying is the only real goal I have anymore, but it cannot be obtained because of the job issue. And whenever I want to fly I get depressed because I can't afford it. I've just GOT to fly, the freedom that it provided and the skills/talents required, its that last challenge left in this modern world, not to mention to see the world from that peaceful view! I wonder if there is a way to get free money, so I can live my last dream.