I am so bored.

It's one of my problems, because i have been sick, i have trouble finding things to do.

I thought maybe a day program, for people with mental illness would be good, somewhere to go in the morning, something to do, something so i don't feel like i am wasting my life, something to make the time go faster, something to make me feel involved in something.

But i don't know.

I'm not sure of what day programs are offered.

I used to want to do one, but my then psychologist (who i hate now, for good reason), said it was for people much sicker than me. So i felt like i would be in a room of people who had no personality (no offence, i'm trying to describe very depressed or sick people), who don't talk and who act stupid (i mean i don't think they're stupid they just might have trouble thinking- i know what that's like)

So i thought, well if i am more well than that, i couldn't participate.

But the truth is that i am doing NOTHING, and have been for 5 years (I did go to Uni, but only part-time and i didn't do any work!)

So maybe i am ACTUALLY THAT sick. Do you think so?

I have a lot of trouble finding things to do, i have for these last 5 years.

Today i smoked, ate, slept, and read a little and took some notes (the only productive thing i did), also talked to a friend on then net, but we more like abused each other (we have that kind of relationship, but it's ok, he's sick too)

I do so little with my day.

It's really hard.

I don't know what to do.

I'm stuck and i feel like there are so few options.

Can anybody help?