I'm tired of being different. I'm tired of people not understanding why sometimes I(we) claim different things at different times. They will not realize an alter is out and they will sometimes become frustrated with me because I can't respond in the same way.
I end up feeling miserable, like im letting people down. I've tried to explain the whole alter thing and treating them like the persons they are. IT is still hard though and I have to admit sometimes Id like to just pretend they aren't there.
Having a hard time communicating with others lately. Security walls went wayyy up when met with pdoc.
Baby thinks she has nice blond hair. Melly thinks she is out to get us just like all the other adults and will just yell and tell us we are bad and maybe even hit us.
I dont know how i feel.
The other morning was really bad with an alter repeatedly saying we were bad, no good, rotten, not good for anything, deserved to be hit...
Im exhausted/wired right now. Think I am this triggered now, and I havent even gotten into talking about stuff. Im just talking abut talking about stuff.