Ive never been in a serious relationship with a girl in my life and I feel like I never will because I will never be good enough for a gf. I feel like I will never make her happy. I feel like if I did marry someone she would not love me and I wouldn't be able to give her what he wanted.

I've been feeling like this for a long time now but It's not that I don't want love in fact I want to fall in love and be loved by someone more than anything.

I'm constantly tortured by a sense of failure.When I'm feeling in a darker place, my perception is that everything sucks and even though I've done this, it seems I should have done more. Trying to stay grateful helps.

The desire to feel like i am not a loser drives me. I don't know if that's the healthiest thing—to be motivated by a fear of hating yourself, but it helps In a perfect world I would overcome the sense that I suck constantly.

Well I am 29 year-old male who, due to many factors, has been pretty far behind the curve when it comes to relationships and sex. Did casual dating a few times when I was in high school/college (as in we go out 1-2 times just for fun, never get physical at all) but didn't date in any form for most of my 20s due to personal issues (mostly due to massive shyness/social-anxiety problems).
I've managed to turn things around a bit and can talk to anyone. I am a different person now I just had to look at this way no one cares.

To further complicate matters, I never had a real gf b4 but have had sex with a girl I was dating for almost a year but it did not work out.

Anyway I decided to go back to college a 2nd time .My job is OK but it a dead end job and it is nothing I am passion at about doing forever. Retail sucks and I do not like it at all so it was time to do something new. Working night crew for the rest of my life is no fun and there no wear to go in retail.My job just does not pay well like $18 an hour will not feed a family even working full time.

I am working toward becoming a physical therapy assistant or get my bachelor's degree in nursing.

I want to start a family some day and do all the stuff i never got to do. I want to spent more time with my kids then work all the time. I want to give them the opportunity to play sports if they want to it is up to them. I be there to help them if they need help with there home work of just hang out with my kids. I want to go on family vacations and go on short tips together. Also just do things as an family and spent all the time we can together.

I just want my future wife and kids to be proud of me and if I am not good at what I do or try my hardest I feel like a loser.

I have to make it so i can meet a girl and feel like i have some thing to offer . Right now i do not have much to offer a girl . I want a wife and kids but if i fail I do not deserve to be loved.