I 've been battling depression for many years. I fell into what I call the black hole again about a year ago when I found out three of the closet people in my life were abusing prescription drugs. I've survived 3 major encounters with depression and this black lifeless hole that swallows your soul I'm not sure how I managed to climb out back then but I did and for a little while things were ok . This time seems different somehow I ended up being sent to a day program that helped a little I refuse to take meds the thought of putting pills in my mouth repulses me . especially since my loved ones addictions are what sent me to the bottom of this pit again. I manage to go to work most days but find no joy or happiness in anything anymore I'm already dead inside.