Thank you for shareing. I to dissociate even when being touched in a non sexual way. It absolutely scares me to death to think of sex, or cuddleing w/ out dissociating. I might could talk durring sex, I know I could but it doesn't keep me present. The subject matter has litle to do w/ sex though. If my H reminded me that I was safe and I was not going to be hurt or trapped it would make me feel worse. But that is just me. For some weird reason when people say these kinds of things to me I cry. Who knows why. When people tell me they are proud of me, or that I am valuable in any kind of way, I cry. I don't know what is wrong w/ me and it is very frustrating. But that what T is for.
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