Yes, the 'why buy the cow when the milk is free' scenario. I've joked with him about this.
His kids are now almost 22 and 19 but when they were young, I can quite easily see that his daughter then 9, would not be happy with me on the scene. She was daddy's princess and in my view spoilt rotten. Her wish was/is his command. She'd wrap him round her finger, still does. I can imagine very easily her thoughts on me, at the time, no way would she want to share him. Now grown up tho, wouldn't she want her dad to have a mate ? He knows financially I woukdn't ruin him, just not in me to.

I've passed the menapause, had quite an easy ride luckily, no symptoms, few hot flushes, all quite stress free.

I don't want to get heavy after not seeing him in so long, God, he hates heavy ! But wouldn't the best bet be to ask him direct ?

Not sure how I do that without being seen as spoiling the evening, which I don't want to do. I'd love him to suggest spending christmas day together, but don't want to ask him for an invite.

This is such a strange relationship. Yes the ex wife screwed him over but that's history.

Why is my life so s h i t. Why couldn't my relationship be normal, go through normal stages of devolpment.

I don't want to be used !

I want commitment !

And yes, I want marriage !