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Originally Posted by Big Mama
If my H reminded me that I was safe and I was not going to be hurt or trapped it would make me feel worse. But that is just me. For some weird reason when people say these kinds of things to me I cry. Who knows why. When people tell me they are proud of me, or that I am valuable in any kind of way, I cry. I don't know what is wrong w/ me and it is very frustrating. But that what T is for.
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Yeah - I would probably cry too, at first. And, yes, I cry when people say nice things to me or tell me they are proud of me or whatever.
I even struggle with having a doctor touch me - completely non-sexual, but I still dissociate. At my last appointment, I asked the doctor to keep talking to me, tell me what they were doing, and remind me to take deep breaths. They did, and it did help some. I stayed present, but then broke down in tears afterwards.
I'm single right now, and enjoy being single, but I also think that part of my desire to stay single is that I hate the distance that dissociating puts between me and a partner. The last guy I dated kissed me on the second date, and I freaked out and told him I wasn't interested in seeing him again. We weren't really a good match anyway, but him initiating any kind of intimate contact before I was really ready just made me panic.