Thank you Frances for your note. I did not mean to sound curt to you either. I wanted you to know, that I found my answer. . .God. This past weekend I spent camping at Ichthus, basically a Christian woodstock. I've been a Christian since I was 9 years old, but had fallen away from my faith. I realized that the answer I had been searching for these past 5 years was here all along. God loves me no matter what happened, no matter what I do. I have decided to turn my life back to Him who loves me more than anyone. I know that the path will not be easy, temptation lies at every door as you have said, however, this time I'm not alone. He will here my cry and come to me. I pray that you will find this release and healing from the Great Healer himself.