i tried to tell her how it was like to sit in that chair and have her say the things she said.i wanted her to see me sitting there and hear it all but she just said she didn't remember saying anything anything like that at all.but i was there .she says I'm mixing things up .it is so so so crazy making .i was there she did say these things .she did. i told her i didn't like what she said but it was OK that it may be the truth she didn't need to lie .she said she isn't lying she has no reason to . i hit the chair so that she could see that i know the truth. and she just looked at me . she said she would never tell me it was OK to hurt myself ,she would never agree that i am selfish. but she said it. then she wants to remember i matter. so confusing. why is she lying. she said she wants me to tell her what happened .i tried to show he but she wouldnt listen. i just want her to know how it is to sit in this chair and hear these things. i told her i hate this stupid place and why do they like to do that. and she asked what when i had just spent the time telling her .why speak.