Okay, you know how you now feel your happiness wasn't "true" and right/good? Well, guess what, this unhappiness and self-loathing isn't any more true and right/good than the happiness! You can't have one without the other. There is no flatline of happiness where you achieve bliss and nevermore feel badly or where you hit the dumps and nevermore can be happy again. So, push off from the bottom of the pool again and start up to where the surface and good air is :-)

(((Mystry))) You're as worthwhile as anyone here, there is no "petty" or unworthy emotional pain and there's no way to compare with others, it's apples to oranges, we don't have their lives, we only have our own and when our life isn't going well, it's not going well, period.