Today I learned something about how food triggers the same areas of the brain as heroin and morphine. Explains a lot...LOL. I done the hypnoses session about overeating. I basically just tried to be still, relax and listened to what he had to say. My ADHD made it hard to follow.

This is the second hypnoses tape I've tried but the first one was off an infomercial. I couldn't be hypnotized then either but tried to just keep his suggestions of "half only" in my mind. Honestly it didn't carry much weight at midnight when I'm facing my trigger foods. It also wasn't as urgent back then to my health as it is now.

Dr. Amen's hypnoses session was more professional. He is a neuroscientist and psychiatrist. He basically talked you into relaxing and imagining yourself in a beautiful garden coming to a crossroads. On the left path is where you're going to end up staying on your current destructive course of eating junk, not exercising, etc. On the right is how you will be if you make healthier choices for your body, eat slowly, not inhale your food and take the time to actually be mindful of it. He suggests you listen to the cd regularly to reinforce your right vs wrong choices.

I will have to listen to this everyday. Right now my bingeing is under a veil of control but I am irritable and grumpy. I'm in one of those moods where you know you shouldn't do something but mad and miserable because "You can't". Or to put it another way I feel like a fox put in charge of guarding the hen house or Edwards family watching Bella with a major flesh wound. I don't WANT to do it but that doesn't mean I won't...LOL.

It's a start. I'm not going to get too excited yet. In the past I have been good for up to five days then gained five pounds in a three day relapse. Honestly, I think it would ease the temptation so much if I just went to bed at 8PM. All in all, I am cautiously optimistic.