Hi Jimi, when I wake up it usually is with an unprovoked sense of anxiety.

Sometimes it is caused by a bad dream but not normally.

I do have a misfiring problem within my brain (hereditary issue, unfortunately for me) where I can sleep so deep/focus so hard to the point where my brain forgets to tell my lungs/body to breathe. This can cause me to wake up gasping for air on some nights which may add to a sense of anxiousness.

But i would say about 85% of the time I just wake up and I don't feel any sort of panic until I get myself thinking. It is impossible to banish the thoughts like others have tried to suggest.

Also for everyone, I have gotten my mother on board into getting me to see a few doctors to find one that works for me. I forgot to mention that in this thread but it is not officially happening until after we come home from Christmas break.

More background on me to answer the rest of these questions:

- For some strange reason my body shows no physical signs of sleep deprivation (e.g. Bags under eyes, headaches, sullen complexion or decreased immunity) besides the obvious fatigue which I am sometimes able to ignore if I am constantly moving or around other people or at school. It just seems that sometimes my Circadian rhythm is a but off sometimes.

- I do not watch any overly violent or gruesome tv shows that could get to me or stem these thoughts at night.

-I don't have too many reasons to be stressed (thank God) about these things I just make them up in my head and scare myself out without any sort of warning.

-Only real stress is my life is getting into college but I have gotten into 2 of my top 3 schools with scholarships. I do worry about being on my own even though I won't admit it to my parents.

-I used to sleep in my parents' or my brother's room every other night until I was maybe 10 years old due to fears of someone coming to get me, demons, ghosts, my dolls coming alive (my brother and sister made me watch Child's Play when I was 6 years old and pranked me with my dolls for a solid 3 months) or earthquakes (we were living in California at the time and I woke up during one which has maybe scarred me for life). I've never admitted that because its really embarrassing. I mean most kids are able to sleep in their own room by themselves at age 4. Also I'm scared to tell my parents that I still have thoughts like this mostly because it's been almost 8 years since I have woken them up and I'm worried about their reaction if they know this has been going on from when I was about 4 until now (I'm almost 18)

I really just don't know what to do but I know I need sleep.

Any thoughts or am I just another crazy person that hates sleep?