Hey... you.. Mr Lyle J! You're my friend and I don't like garbage... so you can't be garbage, OK?!!!!! What IS garbage- is these feelings of being nothing... useless... not worthy... Yeah... I know, they are so hard to fight against! But! I know you can do it! Like I've said to you before... you're not the guy I started talking to early this year. You were beaten... struck to the ground... your body in total distress... you couldn't even say what was wrong... you hid within yourself... all you knew right then was PAIN. That's how I remember it, anyway....
You started seeing a therapist, a step you found pretty hard taking, I think. Then you began to talk... not just talk... really talk about what worried you inside.

You've went through hard situations reminding you of the past... remember when the fire alarm went of in your building and fire fighters were all around you??? Must have been soooooooo rough on you! But! You made it through that hard moment!!!
You may fall from time to time... we all do... but you will always rise again! Instead of feeling defeated... Look back at these days you had in happiness, feeling free... knowing that they will come to hold your hand again! You're still in therapy and making progress! You've told me about how you're trying to change the way your thinking. Lyle... it takes time! You've had this way of thinking for years and years... you're used to it.... let yourself have that time to heal and to find new ways to think.
When you was about to get your driving license... you didn't just jump inside the car and drove away, did you? No... you had to take it step by step... Did you get out of the car just because of engine failure caused by you not stepping the gas enough??? No, you got inside and step by step you learned how to drive!
Don't give up! You'll be a terrific driver in time!!!!