I went back when it was no longer my safe place for the first time. I couldn't even look at T, although I wasn't exactly sure why. I've never struggled to look at her while we talk in the past. I think she was the first one that said something about how I didn't feel safe. I don't think it really clicked with me until I'd left, and I knew then that she was right. It wasn't safe at all. I was afraid of her and her office, and I almost didn't make it back. I've shared my thoughts since about why it became unsafe, and I'm not done sharing them yet, because there's still so much more. I'm not sure she expected me to feel this UNSAFE, but I do....so she gets to hear about it.