So, when I was really struggling with anorexia earlier this year I started with a new primary care physician. He was awesome and non-judgmental, tried to find me a shrink (the shrink wanted me to go inpatient and I didn't, the primary care doc was supportive in this as well). He had me come in for weight checks but I finally told him it was way too triggering for me and that I had been down this road many times, I knew I would eventually gain etc... He was pretty okay with this and we spaced appts out further.....I cancelled the last one which was for a couple months ago.

Anyways, I have gained and know I am no longer considered underweight ( yeah, I m a mental mess and purge daily but no longer am technically anorexic). So, I had to call and get a non ED prescription refill on a med and the nurse called back and said he filled the script but wants me to come in. I asked why and she said " he wants to check your weight". I told her I was not comfortable with that and I didn't want to waste their time, as I wouldn't allow them to weigh me. She said I could take that up with the dr when I come in and just make an appt. so, I did and now I am going in next week.

I am instantly triggered and am envisioning hard core restriction before this appt so they don't think I am a pig who never had a problem. Thereis no f-ing way I am getting on the scale there.

Do I cancel? go in and politely refuse to be weighed? I am so triggered, any advice welcome.